Do You Believe In Yourself?
This is probably the most vulnerable, honest, article that I have written, but I feel it is the right time to share it with all of you.
My big realization I had yesterday…
I was lying in bed last night.
About to go to sleep.
And I was thinking about my business. I was thinking about all the hard work that I put into it. The time. The long damn hours.
I could feel my mind drifting to a negative space.
Because often times it really does feel like I make all this free content, which isn’t even my core business, for no reason at all.
But then I forced myself to write down one positive thing. Just one.
And then it all just spiraled. I was overcome with gratitude.
To fully understand where I am going with this article, I need to take you back a good few years:
Before I had my own business I was working for a boss at a previous job.
I was working in sales & marketing.
There was an internal position available as Marketing Manager.
I applied for it.
But even after being with the company for a number of years.
I was made to fight it out with another employee.
An employee who had not being there for long.
Because, according to others, I…
“Didn’t have what it takes”
“Didn’t look the part”
Long story short.
I eventually got promoted to Marketing Manager.
Many of my ideas got shut down.
Many of my ideas around the digital side of the things were overlooked.
And in the end, I just did what I had to do, nothing more.
You see the thing is, when you are around people who don’t believe in you, you stop believing yourself.
Here’s another thing:
No matter what job I was in prior to having my own business, I knew that with the right digital strategy, you could grow a business.
But if there is no believe in your strategy from your peers, that’s where the vision ends.
But me being me, the persistent mofo I am, with my little “I will show you” attitude made it my goal to show myself and those that didn’t believe in my ideas that I could make it work.
But ultimately I was going to make it work for myself, and not for someone else’s business.
So, whilst I still had a full time job in the tourism industry:
I started studying digital marketing.
Every night after work I would sit for hours and…
Research more digital strategies.
I started seeing how I could grow my personal online brand.
I had this burning desire inside of me to make it a success.
Just to prove to those who didn’t believe in my that I could do it.
And I wasn’t going to let anything stop me.
And every day I was sitting at my day job where my ideas where limited, where I was just another number, where it was their way or no way, where there was no belief, but I knew I was going home to continue working on my own brand.
When those around you don’t believe in you…
You start questioning yourself.
“Am I good enough”
“Maybe I don’t have what it takes”
“Maybe I am being delusion”
“Maybe I am only good enough to do the basics”
But I didn’t let those thoughts get in the way of me going home every night and working on my online brand. A brand that once started as a form of self accountability.
I was now using it to quieten those voices.
Now, let’s go back to the start of this article.
My realization from last night.
The one positive I wrote down in my journal was:
“I have hired a web developing team”
A web team for my own business.
Never in a million years did I ever think that I would be in the position I am.
Never in a million years did I think I would be at the point where I would be in the position to outsource work.
Never in a million years did I think that I would grown my online brand to the point where it is now. To build a business on the back of it. To be working on a massive relaunch for 2025. To outsource and pay for a team.
Never in a million years did I believe I can make a living from doing something that no one believed I could do!
Last night I had tears of joy.
I had tears of joy as I realized that I didn’t need others to believe in me to be successful.
All I need was…
For me to believe in me!
And that is my message to you today:
Keep believing in yourself. Even when others don’t. Even when you question your goals. Even when you question your abilities. Even when you feel like nothing is going according to plan. Even when it gets lonely. Even when anything.
Keep believing in yourself.
The magic you are searching for is in the hands, in the belief that you have in yourself.
Much Love
Mandy
Disclaimer:
I did do a little “Screw you” victory dance as I thought “I told you I could f'****en do it!”